happy father's day

to all the father's out there. i am attempting to enbark upon a musical journey of understanding. off the deep end i run once again. may there be arms out-streched to catch me when the time comes for me to land. this may just be proof positive i have little ability to communicate well with people, and have even less ability to improve upon the skills i am lacking without input from some sane other....

me, myself, and i

are deleteing everything i just wrote bc it is too self serving and self depricating. someone slap me and remind me to be myself again. i got lost in trying to be too many things that i am not. so now where to begin......

in normal news, our dogs ripped off and chewed up the trim over the drivers side wheel of my mom's mini, so back to the recue center they go. dogs 2, cars 0.

stupid song

i have this stupid song stuck in my head. i heard it yesterday on sirius 1, the top 40 station and this afternoon one line started repeating in my head. its not even that good a song, and i don't know who its by or the name of it. all that repeats is the poor voice of a guy singing, be careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it....
its really getting annoying. i'm not so sure i like my subconcious being so overt lately. i'm not liking life being what it seems... its eerily predictable.

Archival

I got into the spirit of very late spring cleaning for this site. I went way back to the vert beginning and consolidated all of the pre-blogger files into one archive. There are surprizingly few dead links and I only erased one file for my sanities sake. All in all I feel like its pretty easy to navigate 7 years of nonsense with relative ease. The only thing left to do is check my webspace. I haven't logged in to freeshell in a long time, but I guess I still have plenty of webspace.... I managed to move almost all of my pictures to picasa, although the really small older ones wouldn't load for some reason. I'm thinking about moving to blogger's webspace instead of using my own, but I'm hesitant about that. I'm also considering using google home page to move everything else to so my webspace will pretty much be an index pointing to all content on other servers, and then i can play around with my web space and try to find some time to make something new...

i dunno. i'm just glad i started this all that time ago. its kinda nice to have a half ass diary. i'm not much of a photographer, but the pictures make a difference somehow.

changes

so i made some changes to this blog that were long in need. the archives links now point to the right place and you can see the entirety of the ink blot i like so much at the top of the page. you can now peruse my babbling way into the past with ease. enjoy the long, drawn out nonsense i spew.

the camera needs new batteries. the kids are really getting into pretending and its entirely too cute to go undocumented.

i'm trying to avoid infection this week so everyone please send me good immune system juju and prayers and the like. thanks! in other health news, with some threatening, i finally got my doctors office to order an h-pylori culture! it only took 6 months! way to go san antonio. this town bring the whole mexican attitude of ma& #241ana to a whole new level..... (why the hell is the tilde there and not above the n?)

funky feeling.....

lately i've been having this weird syncronous feeling, like time is folding in on itself and is no longer linear in my mind, but is, i don't even have a word for that, universal i guess. its really creeping me out today. i had a weird dream that was far too realistic and things keep happening today that reinforce the dream. maybe this is what the coming of quetzalcoatl is all about.... the dialation of space-time into something else.

that's the end of my crazy susperstitions now. anyone curious should read, "2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl", by Daniel Pinchbeck. i've been trying to be better atuned to everything around me, but i think i'm not quite ready for that.